The public is slowly waking up to the signs of global authoritarianism taking hold yet spiritual communities and centers of so-called non-conventional thinking are still asleep.
Thank you for this. I can imagine your grief over Wallis. I was grieved to learn about Omega's vaccine policy. I had been a participant and on staff there. I'd also been to Esalen. Really makes you wonder how this could happen. I have heard of Ra and I will do further research. Thanks for link. I have done the Vipassana 10 day retreat. Deepest I have ever gone in meditation where I had experience of completely dissolving, there was no me. Madhava, I always get a great deal out of what you write.
Thank you for the kind comment. I certainly did lose sleep over Wallis. This essay is cathartic for me. I do still highly recommend his books on the subject of Tantra.
The Law of One is not for everyone. The syntax is challenging and the concepts are very deep. If you are looking for a thoughtful overview of the material I highly recommend the work of Aaron Abke. I am pleased that his material is getting a lot of play these days.
A very interesting piece on a complex subject. I feel a sense of being wounded by the last few years. Seeing musicians I admired, such as Bruce Springsteen and Neil Young, exclude unvaccinated people from concerts bothered me. Omega Institute had a program called Radical Remission for cancer patients who think outside the box—but it required vaccination. Most of all, I felt a mean-spirited and deliberate ignorance. Discussion is barely permitted or possible. This, and the kowtowing to authority figures who offered the flimsiest support for their views, has shifted my worldview in a way hard to define.
Thanks for this. I share many of your percepetions and experiences. I was and remain astonished at many of the people who fell, and fell hard, for the jabs con. As I often remark, this time has been a revelation.
I’ve been reading you ever since you intervened in a particularly intense argument I was engaged in on a thread on Christopher Wallis’s fb re: the vaccines. You were the perfect voice of reason and supported what I was expressing but in a much more cool, collected and diplomatic manner than me. You were one of the only people on his page who backed me and definitely the person with the most academic and scientific credentials who did. Your intelligent, reasonable voice was so important to me at a time when I was being completely gaslit for questioning the narrative, so thank you!
Christopher blocked me on his page shortly after that because he was frustrated that he was unable to respond in an intelligent way to the technical and science based concerns I was raising about the vaccines. This was after I had completed almost 2 years of intensive Tantric Shaivism immersion study with him.
I’m Bobby Wilder’s partner; we have both appreciated your insights, perspectives and commentary over the past 3 years (and your multiple interviews on the Dr Future show!), so thank you for your work.
FWIW, I lost a lot of sleep over Chris Wallis too, very unfortunate because I consider his teaching and his writing on Tantric Shaivism very valuable but I couldn’t figure out why he was passing judgment on the vaccines when he has no background in that area.
In any case, thank you again for all of your work and your writing!
Hi Katya! Thank you for the comment. I remember meeting and speaking with you three years ago at a most remarkable home...
You aren't the only one that has reached out to me after being blocked or even publicly shamed. He's hurt more than a few people. But to his credit, he hasn't blocked or unfriended me yet. I'm not sure why he lets me into his echo chamber. Perhaps some day he will read this and have a kind of reckoning. Or then again, it may backfire completely...
I’ve only watched one doctor admit that she was wrong about the mRNA and the whole time she spoke, she said over and over how hard it was for her to admit she was wrong. Bizarre. It’s easy for most of us to admit we are wrong now and then.
In my experience, it's much harder to admit that my entire community of trusted researchers and reporters was wrong than to admit that I personally made a mistake.
Thank you for writing this, you always hit the mark. I was blocked by Wallis because I was "killing" people (his words) by regularly reminding everyone that safe and effective treatment (eg Ivermectin) existed. It is cathartic for me to read this. But Mr Wallis had lost his way long before Covid - he fell victim to his ego fairly early on.
It's incredible. So many of his statements are so easily disproven but he puts so much faith in the establishment. At the same time I have seen him repent once in a while. At one point he made a cryptic admission to his kula that after some contemplation he "really didn't know anything". I don't know if it resulted from one of our heated exchanges or not. It didn't take long for him to get back in the saddle though.
Hah, we're in the same situation, both blocked by Wallis and both feeling that Madhava's article was cathartic (see my comment above). We also both know that the teacher is definitely not following the teachings, very unfortunate...
I doubt it. I suspect it is more as Madhava says: he simply believed the statements because tey supposedly came from qualified "experts". Just as he is an expert in his field (which he is), he does not feel the need to question anothers expertise. Where he failed was to "sense" the inauthenticity of the "experts" and to begin asking questions.
I too dove deeply into Law of One in 2019 and had also found Tantra Illuminated in my studies a little before then. It is disappointing that Hareesh fell in line with authoritarianism, but I love how you can separate his work and insight, which deserve credit, from his missteps.
I used to have a lot more respect for Sam Harris, too. I was never atheist but found him to be a good ambassador of rationalism. But now I think it absurd that he offers advice on how to make sense of reality while being so A - so wrong (so arrogantly) and B- afraid of death.
I wonder how much of Hareesh's blindness came from fear of death, (which would be ironic, no?) and how much came from fear of not being seen as part of club smart people?
Either way, I always appreciate you and what you share. Cheers for another beautiful offering. I felt compelled to chime in because it seems auspicious to me that Law of One and Tantra Illuminated played important roles in both of our lives during a very similar window.
And on that topic, I was in the Marines in 2006 when I realized 9/11 was a much deeper story, and that was also a pivotal experience for me as it was you. I immediately decided I'd rather go to prison or be executed than stand idly by while the insane ran the asylum. And here we are, as insane as ever, but hopefully if you keep writing and working, I may learn more about how to be more effective while not being idle, haha.
Wow! So many parallels! I completely agree with you about the irony and I also must conclude that he has a lot of fear of being excluded from "the club". Being part of the intelligentsia makes it so easy to "know". All you have to do is follow their lead. This is why I find Wallis' attitude so utterly inexplicable. He is supposed to be the expert in seeing clearly and cannot realize that he is being dogmatic. He has constructed an edifice of understanding like a pile of Jenga blocks. One of these days the whole thing is going to come tumbling down.
Years ago, I practiced Aikido in a small dojo in Greenwich Village. One weekend we had a seminar in which the Sensei of our Aikido sect came to teach. It was very exciting to anticipate. When he arrived he strode in, exuding ego, sporting a large, flamboyant beret. His self-consciousness stunned me. Here was a man who had attained a multiple dan-level (post-black belt) rating in a martial art that meant a lot to me, and he was consumed by his (very meager) celebrity.
Madhava, I love your substack articles and was thinking just yesterday I wish you’d hurry up and send a new one! So I was happy to see you this morning.
Your words take me back to a conversation I had had with a respected spiritual mentor early on in the pandemic. I asked her if she was taking the vax and she said she was; then somewhere along in the conversation she grew impatient with my inquiries and said to me: “to me it’s nothing more than brushing my teeth!” I was dumbfounded to discover the level of denial coming from someone who I considered to be enlightened ... it made no sense to me!
Over the following months my “bubble” of trusting people to know truth would pop over and over again and I’m still reeling from all of it. Today I believe it is PRIDE that is keeping these kinds of people from the truth. Pride is like a fake wall that covers their vision . But ....it is ever so slowly crashing down as we speak (thanks to people like you who help others to see the obvious chinks in their armor). It takes great intelligence to know what is going on but an even greater intelligence to write about it without offending people which would just increase their pride and resistance.
Thank you for all of your great efforts to wake people up !!
It is obvious to me that people with good intentions can be easily manipulated by fear narratives. Once we realize that our true nature is indestructible we will see that the greatest attack upon us isn't the threat of death or disease, it is efforts to suppress of our free will and creativity.
While I do not write to intentionally offend anyone I feel like I would be missing the mark if I didn't end up offending SOMEBODY...
This post is tremendous, cathartic in ways i can’t express. Thank you for the gift of your insight and exquisite writing. I have been stuck in a mindset of fighting back from my perspective as a former critical care RN and also as gay person standing up against the social engineering and harming of children. I explored the Law of One as well as many Buddhist, Taoist and Hindu perspectives following my NDE as a young adult. I haven’t been able to hold that space through the past 4 years. Your writing is a beautiful reminder of how essential that is. Thank you again and wishing you a happy birthday and year ahead.
Absolutely but it was life/soul changing yet my clumsy account never captures the depth of it. I was coded in the ED for about 40 minutes. At the time I was an agnostic who had been raised Catholic. I flatlined numerous times but was fully conscious of the room. I was looking down watching and could hear the MD who was not much older than me repeating, "come on kid you can make it". I kept talking to him and the nurses trying to tell them that I was alright. When I realized they couldn't hear me I found myself turning to look up. I saw an extremely long tunnel with a brilliant light at the end and was instantly pulled into it at an incredible yet gentle speed. I popped out literally into the light and was met by 7 shimmery, translucent blue beings who I came to understand were my Spirit Guides. They led me with immense love through 1 event from each year of my life. In this life review I relived the events emotionally but also experienced how I impacted another person and then how that person impacted the next and so on. I was only 20 so my missteps were fairly tame but I was acutely aware of the negative energy I had put out in the world and how it impacted others. What astounded me was that my Spirit Guides and the indescribable light that we were held in filled me with love and acceptance which is what allowed me to judge myself. There were no human defense mechanisms available so as I absorbed my actions and there impact I was able to first judge myself then forgive myself. Though I credit my Catholic upbringing with my values I was surprised to see there was no fiery damnation. The love they held me in allowed me to not only judge and forgive myself but to also set a new path for doing better. The beings imparted a lot of information so I came to understand the light we were standing in was what I termed God but it wasn't a singular entity. It is made up of the energies of all of us here on earth and the other worldly spirits. The communication there was purely telepathic. I could hear their thoughts/words and they could also hear mine. Toward the end of my encounter they were so kind, for lack of a better description, to give me a glimpse of some other worlds. They explained that there was a vastness that I was not yet ready to see but they lifted back a veil on 3 worlds. The one I remember best was a place where thousands upon thousands of people (they were not shimmery blue) were quietly sitting in white robes and reading. I remember them because their essence was of pure joy and intellectual wonderment. My guides then said to me, "you know it is not your time and you need to go back"? They then explained to me that some people committing suicide are meant to stay, meant to die that way but I was not one of them. I answered that I understood and that I wanted to get back to do better, to be better. They then said to me, "learn how to love and accept yourself and extend that love and acceptance out into the world". In that moment I was then instantly transported back into my human body. There is another chapter to this story that seems harsh but it was what I needed. It is too long to go into but because I was college drop out without insurance I was extubated a few days later and transferred to a level 4 state mental hospital. What I witnessed and experienced there was literally a trip from heaven to hell. I am grateful for that experience though as it grounded me and set me on a path where I sought teachings, texts, philosophies and religions but was unable thankfully to be influenced by "spiritual teachers" as many along the path proved to be people stuck in ego which is the most poignant destroyer of soul growth. So I have been on a path to appreciate others knowledge and insights but to pay no mind to their title, status etc....
It is not unlike the folks that end up in the top echelon of the medical club :) This is why I cherish your insights and writing. I know I am repeating myself but your posts are cathartic to me spiritually but also from the morass of my nursing career and some of the human horrors I witnessed along the way. Many thanks to you!
My deepest gratitude for this incredible, incredible share. Two things: Your story rings true for me. What you have recounted is pretty close to how I have been hoping things turn out when it is time to cross over.
Second, I don't know how many times you have felt comfortable telling this story. Because you have done it here I'd like to think that I have in some way created a safe space for expressing such a personal share. So yay for me ;-)
I think you may enjoy reading the very first post on this substack:
Without a doubt you have created that safe space. Also an important space where we can explore the energies beyond the corruption and harm. The New Zealand Doc on Substack does it as well but your writing brings in the spiritual in a tangible way! I have told my story to people here and there but have only written it out once around the time it happened. It was grounding and peaceful to put it into words so thank you again :)
Wow Cathy. Thank you for sharing. All of this information is just so helpful. I can see that the pains that led you to this point must have been immense. I hope it's ok to relate this now to myself: you talk about telepathy, a sense of god being made up of everything, the butterfly effect of all that we do. I am at he end stage of my life, at 62. I was an athlete until my thirties, then a mother and in the last decade have shared my yoga and meditation practice on retreats. In the space of 2 years, Motor neuron disease as paralised my body, i can no longer speak or eat, but I sense God in everything around me, like you describe, I am hyperaware of people 's energy and thoughts. It is an immense comfort to have read your story. Thank you again for sharing it and thank you for reading mine. 🙏🙏🙏
Gertrude thank you for sharing your life journey and what you are experiencing and going through now. I believe your experiences as a mom and a yoga and mediation practitioner have helped open up the energies for this important part of your life. They are there for all of us but for those who have cultivated it the energies are more palpable as you described, while still on this side. I learned this during my time with Great Spirit and my guides but also from having faltered here on earth the past 4 years. I lost my connection but Madhava's postings have helped reawaken them. It is wonderful to hear that though you are suffering physically you do sense God in everything around you. Please forgive me if you already do this but as the veil between our time here and crossing over gets thinner you can more easily hear your Spirit Guides too. Please know if you have anything to ask of them at this stage you will likely be able to hear them either vibrationally and/or telepathically. Blessing to you and I will keep you in my daily prayers! Thank you very much for sharing your story.
I think the club membership theory is relevant. One thing to note, there are not just clubs of experts. For some reason the club of liberals/progressives decided to go all in on the vaxx and mandates (as well as 9/11 orthodoxy of course), which would include "spiritual communities". Perhaps it's because at root, "liberals" tend toward collective solutions, even delivered from the top down, and especially if accompanied by a veneer of "scientism". Rather ironic, but many of those who think they are "following the science" are actually living based on faith in an (apparent) consensus. By the way, probably my favorite parts of your essays, Madhava, are the personal anecdotes of your engagements with the "expert" followers. You make a great champion in battle for our side, so thanks for that.
I've noticed the same thing. My small, local meditation sangha stopped meeting in person in 2020, and demanded masks and vaccinations when they re-started in-person meditations late in 2021. I have lost my closest community in Philadelphia because I'm not vaccinated.
I was on my way to the annual gathering of Inst Of Noetic Sciences in March, 2020, when I learned that the meeting had been canceled. IONS is the foremost parapsychology research organization in the US, constantly chiding the orthodoxy of academic science for not recognizing the corpus of empirical research demonstrating the reality of psi. But they are completely blind to the possibility that the medical research community might be misrepresenting COVID vaccines. I spoke to their research director about COVID and 9/11, and he just looked puzzled and said he thought it was implausible that 9/11 and COVID could have been universally misreported.
I wonder how the research director would respond to a scientist in the orthodoxy that says it is implausible that the evidence of psi has been universally unreported.
I'm sorry about your meditation sangha. It's interesting. You probably could have lied about your vaccine status or forged documentation, but would you really want to sit with such a group of people to meditate?
You are, thank goodness, not alone in your epistemological caution. Here's Bertrand Russell: “One of the troubles of the world has been the habit of dogmatically believing something or other and I think all these matters are full of doubt and the rational man will not be too sure that he is right.”
I am pleased to read you again. Your essays often provoke my reflexion.
I like your definition of intelligence. I would like to add that it is also an ability to tolerate uncertainty, and therefore to realize (know) that we don't know everything... which follows well from what you are discussing.
And, having been part of academic circles, I have seen first-hand, disillusioned, that a Ph.D. does not ensure a person's intelligence, wisdom or moral superiority.
You come back to "The Law of One" which you have already discussed. You ask "Have I lost you yet?". No. Thanks to your video on this topic, I started my research and explored these fascinating writings and I still continue. I is a revelation to me. So I have to thank you for opening this path for many. Which you do again today.
Mr Wallis' reaction to you is distressing. He says : "I am afraid I might end up changing my mind". For a person of his calibre? Incredible...
Is it THE FEAR – of dying, of wandering, of doubting – that makes people so obtuse and impervious to any discussion? With those who remain of my family, there is no longer any discussion...
Thank you for this. I can imagine your grief over Wallis. I was grieved to learn about Omega's vaccine policy. I had been a participant and on staff there. I'd also been to Esalen. Really makes you wonder how this could happen. I have heard of Ra and I will do further research. Thanks for link. I have done the Vipassana 10 day retreat. Deepest I have ever gone in meditation where I had experience of completely dissolving, there was no me. Madhava, I always get a great deal out of what you write.
Thank you for the kind comment. I certainly did lose sleep over Wallis. This essay is cathartic for me. I do still highly recommend his books on the subject of Tantra.
The Law of One is not for everyone. The syntax is challenging and the concepts are very deep. If you are looking for a thoughtful overview of the material I highly recommend the work of Aaron Abke. I am pleased that his material is getting a lot of play these days.
A very interesting piece on a complex subject. I feel a sense of being wounded by the last few years. Seeing musicians I admired, such as Bruce Springsteen and Neil Young, exclude unvaccinated people from concerts bothered me. Omega Institute had a program called Radical Remission for cancer patients who think outside the box—but it required vaccination. Most of all, I felt a mean-spirited and deliberate ignorance. Discussion is barely permitted or possible. This, and the kowtowing to authority figures who offered the flimsiest support for their views, has shifted my worldview in a way hard to define.
Thanks for this. I share many of your percepetions and experiences. I was and remain astonished at many of the people who fell, and fell hard, for the jabs con. As I often remark, this time has been a revelation.
I’ve been reading you ever since you intervened in a particularly intense argument I was engaged in on a thread on Christopher Wallis’s fb re: the vaccines. You were the perfect voice of reason and supported what I was expressing but in a much more cool, collected and diplomatic manner than me. You were one of the only people on his page who backed me and definitely the person with the most academic and scientific credentials who did. Your intelligent, reasonable voice was so important to me at a time when I was being completely gaslit for questioning the narrative, so thank you!
Christopher blocked me on his page shortly after that because he was frustrated that he was unable to respond in an intelligent way to the technical and science based concerns I was raising about the vaccines. This was after I had completed almost 2 years of intensive Tantric Shaivism immersion study with him.
I’m Bobby Wilder’s partner; we have both appreciated your insights, perspectives and commentary over the past 3 years (and your multiple interviews on the Dr Future show!), so thank you for your work.
FWIW, I lost a lot of sleep over Chris Wallis too, very unfortunate because I consider his teaching and his writing on Tantric Shaivism very valuable but I couldn’t figure out why he was passing judgment on the vaccines when he has no background in that area.
In any case, thank you again for all of your work and your writing!
Katya Burton, San Francisco
Hi Katya! Thank you for the comment. I remember meeting and speaking with you three years ago at a most remarkable home...
You aren't the only one that has reached out to me after being blocked or even publicly shamed. He's hurt more than a few people. But to his credit, he hasn't blocked or unfriended me yet. I'm not sure why he lets me into his echo chamber. Perhaps some day he will read this and have a kind of reckoning. Or then again, it may backfire completely...
My guess is he hasn’t blocked you because he owed you a big chunk of money. 🤯
I’ve only watched one doctor admit that she was wrong about the mRNA and the whole time she spoke, she said over and over how hard it was for her to admit she was wrong. Bizarre. It’s easy for most of us to admit we are wrong now and then.
Great observation. I think it has to do with being VERY wrong. It's embarrassing.
In my experience, it's much harder to admit that my entire community of trusted researchers and reporters was wrong than to admit that I personally made a mistake.
Thank you for writing this, you always hit the mark. I was blocked by Wallis because I was "killing" people (his words) by regularly reminding everyone that safe and effective treatment (eg Ivermectin) existed. It is cathartic for me to read this. But Mr Wallis had lost his way long before Covid - he fell victim to his ego fairly early on.
It's incredible. So many of his statements are so easily disproven but he puts so much faith in the establishment. At the same time I have seen him repent once in a while. At one point he made a cryptic admission to his kula that after some contemplation he "really didn't know anything". I don't know if it resulted from one of our heated exchanges or not. It didn't take long for him to get back in the saddle though.
Hah, we're in the same situation, both blocked by Wallis and both feeling that Madhava's article was cathartic (see my comment above). We also both know that the teacher is definitely not following the teachings, very unfortunate...
Is he being paid somehow?
I doubt it. I suspect it is more as Madhava says: he simply believed the statements because tey supposedly came from qualified "experts". Just as he is an expert in his field (which he is), he does not feel the need to question anothers expertise. Where he failed was to "sense" the inauthenticity of the "experts" and to begin asking questions.
I too dove deeply into Law of One in 2019 and had also found Tantra Illuminated in my studies a little before then. It is disappointing that Hareesh fell in line with authoritarianism, but I love how you can separate his work and insight, which deserve credit, from his missteps.
I used to have a lot more respect for Sam Harris, too. I was never atheist but found him to be a good ambassador of rationalism. But now I think it absurd that he offers advice on how to make sense of reality while being so A - so wrong (so arrogantly) and B- afraid of death.
I wonder how much of Hareesh's blindness came from fear of death, (which would be ironic, no?) and how much came from fear of not being seen as part of club smart people?
Either way, I always appreciate you and what you share. Cheers for another beautiful offering. I felt compelled to chime in because it seems auspicious to me that Law of One and Tantra Illuminated played important roles in both of our lives during a very similar window.
And on that topic, I was in the Marines in 2006 when I realized 9/11 was a much deeper story, and that was also a pivotal experience for me as it was you. I immediately decided I'd rather go to prison or be executed than stand idly by while the insane ran the asylum. And here we are, as insane as ever, but hopefully if you keep writing and working, I may learn more about how to be more effective while not being idle, haha.
Respect and gratitude,
Liam
Wow! So many parallels! I completely agree with you about the irony and I also must conclude that he has a lot of fear of being excluded from "the club". Being part of the intelligentsia makes it so easy to "know". All you have to do is follow their lead. This is why I find Wallis' attitude so utterly inexplicable. He is supposed to be the expert in seeing clearly and cannot realize that he is being dogmatic. He has constructed an edifice of understanding like a pile of Jenga blocks. One of these days the whole thing is going to come tumbling down.
Years ago, I practiced Aikido in a small dojo in Greenwich Village. One weekend we had a seminar in which the Sensei of our Aikido sect came to teach. It was very exciting to anticipate. When he arrived he strode in, exuding ego, sporting a large, flamboyant beret. His self-consciousness stunned me. Here was a man who had attained a multiple dan-level (post-black belt) rating in a martial art that meant a lot to me, and he was consumed by his (very meager) celebrity.
You should never meet your heroes.
It's amazing that someone like that would want to flaunt his prowess. Isn't so much cooler to have such talents and remain nondescript?
It can be disappointing to meet heroes but it is better to have the illusion shattered in the long run.
Madhava, I love your substack articles and was thinking just yesterday I wish you’d hurry up and send a new one! So I was happy to see you this morning.
Your words take me back to a conversation I had had with a respected spiritual mentor early on in the pandemic. I asked her if she was taking the vax and she said she was; then somewhere along in the conversation she grew impatient with my inquiries and said to me: “to me it’s nothing more than brushing my teeth!” I was dumbfounded to discover the level of denial coming from someone who I considered to be enlightened ... it made no sense to me!
Over the following months my “bubble” of trusting people to know truth would pop over and over again and I’m still reeling from all of it. Today I believe it is PRIDE that is keeping these kinds of people from the truth. Pride is like a fake wall that covers their vision . But ....it is ever so slowly crashing down as we speak (thanks to people like you who help others to see the obvious chinks in their armor). It takes great intelligence to know what is going on but an even greater intelligence to write about it without offending people which would just increase their pride and resistance.
Thank you for all of your great efforts to wake people up !!
Thank you for reading my material!
It is obvious to me that people with good intentions can be easily manipulated by fear narratives. Once we realize that our true nature is indestructible we will see that the greatest attack upon us isn't the threat of death or disease, it is efforts to suppress of our free will and creativity.
While I do not write to intentionally offend anyone I feel like I would be missing the mark if I didn't end up offending SOMEBODY...
Very good points you make! I have to agree with them too.
You are right .
Thank you .
This post is tremendous, cathartic in ways i can’t express. Thank you for the gift of your insight and exquisite writing. I have been stuck in a mindset of fighting back from my perspective as a former critical care RN and also as gay person standing up against the social engineering and harming of children. I explored the Law of One as well as many Buddhist, Taoist and Hindu perspectives following my NDE as a young adult. I haven’t been able to hold that space through the past 4 years. Your writing is a beautiful reminder of how essential that is. Thank you again and wishing you a happy birthday and year ahead.
Wow. What a story you must have. Are you able to share more?
Absolutely but it was life/soul changing yet my clumsy account never captures the depth of it. I was coded in the ED for about 40 minutes. At the time I was an agnostic who had been raised Catholic. I flatlined numerous times but was fully conscious of the room. I was looking down watching and could hear the MD who was not much older than me repeating, "come on kid you can make it". I kept talking to him and the nurses trying to tell them that I was alright. When I realized they couldn't hear me I found myself turning to look up. I saw an extremely long tunnel with a brilliant light at the end and was instantly pulled into it at an incredible yet gentle speed. I popped out literally into the light and was met by 7 shimmery, translucent blue beings who I came to understand were my Spirit Guides. They led me with immense love through 1 event from each year of my life. In this life review I relived the events emotionally but also experienced how I impacted another person and then how that person impacted the next and so on. I was only 20 so my missteps were fairly tame but I was acutely aware of the negative energy I had put out in the world and how it impacted others. What astounded me was that my Spirit Guides and the indescribable light that we were held in filled me with love and acceptance which is what allowed me to judge myself. There were no human defense mechanisms available so as I absorbed my actions and there impact I was able to first judge myself then forgive myself. Though I credit my Catholic upbringing with my values I was surprised to see there was no fiery damnation. The love they held me in allowed me to not only judge and forgive myself but to also set a new path for doing better. The beings imparted a lot of information so I came to understand the light we were standing in was what I termed God but it wasn't a singular entity. It is made up of the energies of all of us here on earth and the other worldly spirits. The communication there was purely telepathic. I could hear their thoughts/words and they could also hear mine. Toward the end of my encounter they were so kind, for lack of a better description, to give me a glimpse of some other worlds. They explained that there was a vastness that I was not yet ready to see but they lifted back a veil on 3 worlds. The one I remember best was a place where thousands upon thousands of people (they were not shimmery blue) were quietly sitting in white robes and reading. I remember them because their essence was of pure joy and intellectual wonderment. My guides then said to me, "you know it is not your time and you need to go back"? They then explained to me that some people committing suicide are meant to stay, meant to die that way but I was not one of them. I answered that I understood and that I wanted to get back to do better, to be better. They then said to me, "learn how to love and accept yourself and extend that love and acceptance out into the world". In that moment I was then instantly transported back into my human body. There is another chapter to this story that seems harsh but it was what I needed. It is too long to go into but because I was college drop out without insurance I was extubated a few days later and transferred to a level 4 state mental hospital. What I witnessed and experienced there was literally a trip from heaven to hell. I am grateful for that experience though as it grounded me and set me on a path where I sought teachings, texts, philosophies and religions but was unable thankfully to be influenced by "spiritual teachers" as many along the path proved to be people stuck in ego which is the most poignant destroyer of soul growth. So I have been on a path to appreciate others knowledge and insights but to pay no mind to their title, status etc....
It is not unlike the folks that end up in the top echelon of the medical club :) This is why I cherish your insights and writing. I know I am repeating myself but your posts are cathartic to me spiritually but also from the morass of my nursing career and some of the human horrors I witnessed along the way. Many thanks to you!
My deepest gratitude for this incredible, incredible share. Two things: Your story rings true for me. What you have recounted is pretty close to how I have been hoping things turn out when it is time to cross over.
Second, I don't know how many times you have felt comfortable telling this story. Because you have done it here I'd like to think that I have in some way created a safe space for expressing such a personal share. So yay for me ;-)
I think you may enjoy reading the very first post on this substack:
https://madhavasetty.substack.com/p/coming-to
Without a doubt you have created that safe space. Also an important space where we can explore the energies beyond the corruption and harm. The New Zealand Doc on Substack does it as well but your writing brings in the spiritual in a tangible way! I have told my story to people here and there but have only written it out once around the time it happened. It was grounding and peaceful to put it into words so thank you again :)
I look forward to checking out your 1st Post!
Wow Cathy. Thank you for sharing. All of this information is just so helpful. I can see that the pains that led you to this point must have been immense. I hope it's ok to relate this now to myself: you talk about telepathy, a sense of god being made up of everything, the butterfly effect of all that we do. I am at he end stage of my life, at 62. I was an athlete until my thirties, then a mother and in the last decade have shared my yoga and meditation practice on retreats. In the space of 2 years, Motor neuron disease as paralised my body, i can no longer speak or eat, but I sense God in everything around me, like you describe, I am hyperaware of people 's energy and thoughts. It is an immense comfort to have read your story. Thank you again for sharing it and thank you for reading mine. 🙏🙏🙏
Gertrude thank you for sharing your life journey and what you are experiencing and going through now. I believe your experiences as a mom and a yoga and mediation practitioner have helped open up the energies for this important part of your life. They are there for all of us but for those who have cultivated it the energies are more palpable as you described, while still on this side. I learned this during my time with Great Spirit and my guides but also from having faltered here on earth the past 4 years. I lost my connection but Madhava's postings have helped reawaken them. It is wonderful to hear that though you are suffering physically you do sense God in everything around you. Please forgive me if you already do this but as the veil between our time here and crossing over gets thinner you can more easily hear your Spirit Guides too. Please know if you have anything to ask of them at this stage you will likely be able to hear them either vibrationally and/or telepathically. Blessing to you and I will keep you in my daily prayers! Thank you very much for sharing your story.
Happy Birthday! Quite a tour d’ horizon to mark the completion of your second Saturn Return. Congratulations!
I think the club membership theory is relevant. One thing to note, there are not just clubs of experts. For some reason the club of liberals/progressives decided to go all in on the vaxx and mandates (as well as 9/11 orthodoxy of course), which would include "spiritual communities". Perhaps it's because at root, "liberals" tend toward collective solutions, even delivered from the top down, and especially if accompanied by a veneer of "scientism". Rather ironic, but many of those who think they are "following the science" are actually living based on faith in an (apparent) consensus. By the way, probably my favorite parts of your essays, Madhava, are the personal anecdotes of your engagements with the "expert" followers. You make a great champion in battle for our side, so thanks for that.
I've noticed the same thing. My small, local meditation sangha stopped meeting in person in 2020, and demanded masks and vaccinations when they re-started in-person meditations late in 2021. I have lost my closest community in Philadelphia because I'm not vaccinated.
I was on my way to the annual gathering of Inst Of Noetic Sciences in March, 2020, when I learned that the meeting had been canceled. IONS is the foremost parapsychology research organization in the US, constantly chiding the orthodoxy of academic science for not recognizing the corpus of empirical research demonstrating the reality of psi. But they are completely blind to the possibility that the medical research community might be misrepresenting COVID vaccines. I spoke to their research director about COVID and 9/11, and he just looked puzzled and said he thought it was implausible that 9/11 and COVID could have been universally misreported.
I wonder how the research director would respond to a scientist in the orthodoxy that says it is implausible that the evidence of psi has been universally unreported.
I'm sorry about your meditation sangha. It's interesting. You probably could have lied about your vaccine status or forged documentation, but would you really want to sit with such a group of people to meditate?
“By their fruits ye shall know them.” Probably the most ignored spiritual advice ever…
You are, thank goodness, not alone in your epistemological caution. Here's Bertrand Russell: “One of the troubles of the world has been the habit of dogmatically believing something or other and I think all these matters are full of doubt and the rational man will not be too sure that he is right.”
I am pleased to read you again. Your essays often provoke my reflexion.
I like your definition of intelligence. I would like to add that it is also an ability to tolerate uncertainty, and therefore to realize (know) that we don't know everything... which follows well from what you are discussing.
And, having been part of academic circles, I have seen first-hand, disillusioned, that a Ph.D. does not ensure a person's intelligence, wisdom or moral superiority.
You come back to "The Law of One" which you have already discussed. You ask "Have I lost you yet?". No. Thanks to your video on this topic, I started my research and explored these fascinating writings and I still continue. I is a revelation to me. So I have to thank you for opening this path for many. Which you do again today.
Mr Wallis' reaction to you is distressing. He says : "I am afraid I might end up changing my mind". For a person of his calibre? Incredible...
Is it THE FEAR – of dying, of wandering, of doubting – that makes people so obtuse and impervious to any discussion? With those who remain of my family, there is no longer any discussion...
Yes, it's time to wake up.
Thank you